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It's about time to post again.
There has been a lot going on in my life that I would like to talk about, but I can't field it here, since it touches on issues I don't talk about over insecure channels.
No longer entirely vegan, but only in a small way: taking fish oil gelcaps (a double whammy) for omega-3 needs, specifically DHA and EPA. I know of a Swiss company that makes this type of supplement in vegan form (using an algal oil derivative), but the supplements are less than half as strong and about six times more expensive, even before shipping.
I've been very self-centered for the past few months. I use this term almost neutrally: it's just a fact that I've had a lot of internal analysis to do, a lot of identity questions to consider. However, this has had some undesirable side effects. I've noticed myself taking up more space in conversations, being me-me-me, which is an almost necessary consequence of the way I change myself and take on new identities, but it's not something I want to make a habit of. I want to be a listener again, though it seems so very odd to say that in a livejournal.
I have begun to overcome an idea that's burdened me for essentially my entire life: that for whatever reason, I am not actually living my life yet, just setting things up so I can live it later. I blame the relentless progression of school for part of this: middle school prepared me for high school, which prepared me for college (I went to an aggressively college-prep high school), and then college was preparing me for a job or for graduate school, and now graduate school is preparing me to be a professor or researcher of some kind, which will have its own stages of preparation (tenure track or seniority). By the time I'm 'ready' in this sense, I will have readied myself to retire and then to die.
Saw Ratatouille, and it was delightful. Highly recommended.
There has been a lot going on in my life that I would like to talk about, but I can't field it here, since it touches on issues I don't talk about over insecure channels.
No longer entirely vegan, but only in a small way: taking fish oil gelcaps (a double whammy) for omega-3 needs, specifically DHA and EPA. I know of a Swiss company that makes this type of supplement in vegan form (using an algal oil derivative), but the supplements are less than half as strong and about six times more expensive, even before shipping.
I've been very self-centered for the past few months. I use this term almost neutrally: it's just a fact that I've had a lot of internal analysis to do, a lot of identity questions to consider. However, this has had some undesirable side effects. I've noticed myself taking up more space in conversations, being me-me-me, which is an almost necessary consequence of the way I change myself and take on new identities, but it's not something I want to make a habit of. I want to be a listener again, though it seems so very odd to say that in a livejournal.
I have begun to overcome an idea that's burdened me for essentially my entire life: that for whatever reason, I am not actually living my life yet, just setting things up so I can live it later. I blame the relentless progression of school for part of this: middle school prepared me for high school, which prepared me for college (I went to an aggressively college-prep high school), and then college was preparing me for a job or for graduate school, and now graduate school is preparing me to be a professor or researcher of some kind, which will have its own stages of preparation (tenure track or seniority). By the time I'm 'ready' in this sense, I will have readied myself to retire and then to die.
Saw Ratatouille, and it was delightful. Highly recommended.
