If only I could be lucky enough to fail out.

I do mean that seriously; if I just drop out of my own accord, it's going to bother me for a long time, maybe for the rest of my life. But if it happens due to circumstances even slightly outside my control, it relieves me of that burden.

At this point I think I really just have to go all-in and finish. I have a good project with lots of potential. The real difficulty is what the hell I'm going to do afterwards.